Carey Danielle Rasmus
THE HUDSON, Carey Danielle Rasmus
i am from
(the hudson, part I)
by Carey Danielle Rasmus
i am from a city on the hudson
green
trees envy me
because i walk with the legs they dream of
this river is like sap in my veins
rooting me
to this land
touching me
with beauty
chaining me
with invisible threads
my prayers go out to the river
dropping like child thrown pebbles
and then forgotten
as waves devour the ripples
of my concern
i envy the trees the simplicity
of their capture
they need the land until death calls
there is no question
only dreams
i have the possibility of distancing myself
the physical foot follows foot ability
but my roots dig far into this soil
clenching at bedrock
refusing to give me wings
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tidal.
(the hudson, part II)
the problem with poetry is that
sometimes
the truth changes
there was a time i wrote about the hudson
and how it was the blood in my veins
how i couldn’t leave its banks
how it held me there
chained
it was truth
i ricocheted
away and back
ebbing and flowing like its tides
it was truth
but my truth has changed
i have aged and moved
i am 3000 miles distant
and cannot go back
what was once life-sustaining
feels more like poison
tainting me still
breaking down my shores and sanity
breaking down my self
this is my truth
i haven’t lied
it’s just that the truth
is tidal
Carey Danielle Rasmus is a special education teacher who specializes in at-risk adolescents. She now lives in the San Francisco bay area with her husband, son, and two cats. She grew up in the Hudson Valley of New York state.